went out yesterday to a friend father's wake till quite late, after that still accompany mum to wash her taxi and pump oil. Came back and sleep around 1am. Set 3 alarm clock to wake up at 6am this morning. As I am going for a 1 day overseas trip.

Unfortunately, I cant wake up. Due to lack of sleep for the past few days/weeks. But I was woke up by a phone call at abt 6.40am, that was the 1 an onli call that i receive this morning. I knew I was late, didnt dare to even drag anymore time. I rush down from my house to AG CC within 10 mins.

Went out with the group. I help to lead the group, but I did pay the full amount as any participant. And hope that everything was alright.

BUT that was not to my expected. When I was back, hear that it became a famous topic since afternoon. I was damn angry! I am supposed to be there enjoying myself as a participant and not being spread around as rumors.

PLUS the version was totally different. Everyone knows that I am late this morning. Ok, fine be it, as I was really late. BUT when the phone rings, I immediately woke up and rush down. BUT they heard that I did not pick up the phone calls at all. Onli pick up when it had been called to me quite a numbers of time. I was like WTF.

I dont like to be blame or being push all the blames. I had been enduring all these shits for a very long time. Just felt that all these people are nonsense. They just like to add salt and pepper to it. Just felt that this place is not suitable for me, even thought I likes to help out in community service. I will start to move out of this circles, and might considering joining other areas.

This is really too much.

I will start slowing to move out, but will leave completely after the countdown celebration is done. Will used school as an excuses from now on. As they had taught me. It will be used now on.

Sorry to those who know, what's going on. I can help with all my heart and sole, but once come to being push as a black sheep. I will try enduring, but once I felt it is enough. I am sorry that, I will not go back anymore. What done is done. We can still be normal friends, I dont mind.

had been skipping school quite alot every since school start. 1st week skip 2 full day and 1 partial, 2nd week skip 2 full day, 3th week skip 2 full day. OMG OMG. I got no mood to study at all. Have PP, have events, have this, have that. OMG OMG, how how how.

I must go class on thurs onwards, have no choice. Used up all the 10 days liao... omg omg.... Having fever, headack here and there this few weeks.

Every since i had been back from vietnam, i having been having any mood for class... OMG OMG help me!!!