Hi all, Welcome back.

Quite alot of things happen this few weeks/mths. Friends are coming and going.
Erm... this few months, keep having problems with my mum. We are quarrel with small matters, dont know why. She didnt call me so often a day, after we quarrel on 18 april till now. But alot of things changes. Had told a few close friends what had happen, when they ask. But I was been advise to sit down and talk to her. But sometimes not that I choose not to handle it at the peaceful side. But however, the way we handle the family issue is in a special way.

I had called my auntie on thursday, to update her and also discuss with her on some issue. Auntie was quite shock, as she didnt hear from me quite long liao. I dont want to update my auntie, as she is my mum sister, dont wish their relationship will change or affected just becos of me. My auntie spoke to my mum about it, but things doesnt change. Auntie also told me mum had her plans, but things are still the same or had gone worst, it doesnt improve at all.

Acutally I had a few grassroots friends whom I always speak to. But I am always scared and worried that I will drag them into more problems. Cos when my mum know that I am always with that person, she will get close to him/her and get news from them. Then those friends of mine will start keeping a gap away from me. This does not apply to grassroots friends, but to all my friends from pri to now.

This few days, I had realise that they are all keeping a gap away from me. Kind of a bit sad, but dont dare to ask much, as things might get worst. Just only hope that things will change.

Yesterday morning, quite piss off with my mum, as on sunday nite in her taxi on the way back home. She had promised to return me the money which she either ask me to pay 1st or help her get some stuff de. I had wrote on a piece of paper with the attach receipt as evidence for her, and left it on her table for quite a few days, but she ignore. So since sunday nite she had promised verbally to me, she should leave it on the table or pass it to me. But she didn't, so I had called her to ask. But she hang my phone off, quite piss off la. Try calling again, but was kana scolded. I was like angry liao lor, call u to ask something but early morning scold this and that. Then she come home, shout here shout there. If she did what she had promised, I will not called her early in the morning. We then end up quarreling, bring up all the things which she wanted. I am angry with her, as she always dont believe in me when I tell her the truth. But she loves to believe in others. Like what my dad always say, she will onli listen to outsider, whatever outsiders say is good for her. Whatever family member say is always wrong.

One of our topic during the quarreling is $.
She work and she earn $, my dad work and also earn $. But not as much as her, that is true. She paid most of the family bills, yes true. But we need to pay our own bills under our own name, and also our own hp bills which is under her name, using our own allowance $ that she give. Previously before our quarrel, she used to give us $10 per day, which includes all 3 meals and our own expenses. But after april, she didnt give me any. But yesterday, I know where all the $ for may had gone to. She had deducted $180 for the specs that I had done, pay for my insurance without my acknowledge. With end up just nice for the whole month allowance. As she didnt give me allowance at first, I told my dad. Ending up, my dad got to give me allowance under his own means. But it is quite hard for dad, cos selling ice-cream doesnt earn much. Other then that he need to pay for his van, his hp bills and himself. Dad didnt ask me go find P/T jobs, cos he know. Each and everytime when I got a P/T job to do, mum will always be there keep nagging and find fault for me. Things always leads me ending up the job. Mum will ways say, want study full time, dont work part time. Want to work, work full time.

Anyway during the end of the quarrelling, dad remind me again. Want study or work always think twice, as he admit that he cant support me much. As mum always play stund with us. This issue had been around for quite long. Ever since when I enrol to polytechnic my school fees had been so high, despite that I had already taken up school loans, still need to pay $300 plus cash every semester. Haiz...

Decided to stop school, but friends, teachers and family members keep msning and called me. Cos it is like quite wasted, already paid 3 semester de school fees liao, still got 3 more semester can graduate liao. But I dont know weather what will happen next. If things are able to change back to normal, mean mum is giving me my allowance and she allow me to find P/T job or tempory jobs, paying my school fees, dont give me unnecessary trouble. I should be able to complete my rest of my 3 semester.

Problem is always becos of $, other than my school. Yesterday dad receive another letter, need to pay $ again. Dad is like broke liao, cos he gave me $270 to go to malaysia. I am now like thinking, should i return him the $270 and dont go to the malaysia trip. I dont know what to do, problems keep coming in and I have no one to talk to or should say dont know whom can I talk to.

Help! Help! Help!