OMG.... my school now got 64 cases... with which 1 is just opposite my class lor...OMG it is coming near and near liao.... haiz... can anyone stop the H1N1 virus? 

hahaha.... omg... today bro birthday... anyway he not at home, cannot celebrate with him....
wish his happy 24 birthday.... wao... 1 more year past liao... work hard....

haiz... it have been quite a few days that i didnt update my blog liao....
this few days like very quiet, very bored, quite worried.. haiz... after all something has missing la...

this few day a few friends whom is very concern about me, didnt talk to me so much liao... dont know why... maybe i had said something wrong... haiz... dont know... just something must be wrong somewhere.... dont feel good lor....

yet bored on sun... cos other than morning the brisk walk, got no event liao... didnt went to see xu jie, cos scared la.... stay at home the rest of the day, didnt go out at all (other then going to 883 for lunch la)

worried cos, RP has been increasing the number of H1N1 cases. Scared of being kana H1N1 and also the quarantine lor.... If I kana, whole family plus all my friends and classmates also need to kana quarantine lor.... Scared kana quarantine, cos 1 of my classmate have been feeling ill for the past few days and keep coming to school. Haven visit the doctor yet lor... If I kana quarantine, I got to stay in the room the whole 7 days lor... cannot go out at all lor... haiz... quite worried... Up to the current as stated in RP website is 56 students and 1 teacher as confirm at 1:58pm today lor.... Can have a look at www.rp.sg/flu

Anyway I was out sat the whole day from 8plus am to 12 midnight then reach home.... Parents like not very happy. Cos sunday morning 6plus I am out again...

8plus out cos got a talk at cc at 9am... but I was slightly late... cos found out that I forgot to bring cap when I am already on the way to cc, no choice but to walk home again... cos I going straight to ndp training later.... I left 2 hours earlier... cos dont feel like taking the mrt, cos need to transfer. So take a bus instead, but the bus cost me 2hrs lor... haiz... after training, need to rush to suntec city for csc dinner... after csc dinner, bro nur send uncle tay, uncle ng and me back... but there was a heavy traffic jam at the carpark, cos too many dinner end about the same time plus the barrer got problems also la....

1 good thing for me la... I found a drive whom can drive me down to ndp training and also back. All thanks to Sir Andy, he also stay in zone 3 area. Ask him last week, he dont mind sending me. Also found 2 others whom stay in woodlands area, but not a volunteer of woodlands la... hahaha... can go together... Anyway Uncle Lim came back last week to see out training... He was like sad lor... cos everytime our training there will be lots of holes... He ask us to get some others whom marched before to come back and help fill up the holes.... Now still trying to get them back, cos they have their own commitment too la... hahaha.... Hope you guys can join us back again... left only 6 times nia...

Anyway, this few days too quiet liao... something wrong somewhere... haiz haiz haiz...

Other then me, people around me also trouble....
Kai Shen now got conflicts with Yuan Shan.. haiz... lots of problem going la....
dont know lor....

Next week UT again... this week not free... dont know what to do...
2ml, thurs, fri --> lesson in school
sat --> NDP training
sun --> brisk walk (morning), movie screening (3pm -5pm) & durain (5pm-6pm)
onli left wed free to study nia... cos at nite still got mps...

haiz....

Hi all, back to update my blog liao...
went to genting on 18 to 20 then shifted to kl from 20-23, just got back home yesterday late night.
have alot of fun...
23 of us went to genting, Ai kuan and family, Philip and family, Mr Ng CY and wife, Amy and mother, Felix, auntie Ivy and me....
11 of us went to KL, they are Philip and family, Felix, aunite Ivy and me
genting --> Went shopping the 1st day.... theme park and movie the 2nd day.... shopping the 3th day...
KL --> went shopping at chinatown 1st day met Mr Ng CY and wife with Amy and mother, have late lunch therefore late dinner... went to times square the 2nd day, 1st time taking the malaysia LRT... went to shopping the 3th day.... went wholesales center the last day....

Bought alot of food back, but in the end, kana nag....
come home, need to settle all the bills, open the letter box(as no one bother to open it), do this do that....
haiz.... sometimes come home abit sian....
mum keep ask me help her this help her that, while sis is always so busy on the phone....
dad was keeping quiet, dont have a chance to talk....
haiz.... need to meet my course chair later.... need to go back school....
abit sian, and stress....

have a few friends, keep asking me... "how's my family... how's my mum... how this how that.... why this why that....." erm... quite a concern friends... but sometimes, u know so much also cant help me... sometimes i say so much also like this... sometimes say till like my fault...

erm... the onli thing that i can say is that, you all are outsider you all will never understand me or be in my shoe...

Yes, i agree my mum work to support and paid most of the bills.... My dad cant, as he earn much much lesser then my mum.... I know my mum work very hard... but so what....
when she is happy, she help u pay... when she is angry, she deduct each and every cent from you. Sometimes she can dont even give a cent like now. Saying that she earn it, she can dont give. What the logic behind it. You now feed me, I got to feed you in the future. Dont forget, I dont think brother and sister will be able to support you in the future lor... they spend what they earn also not enough liao, how to support you all.... anyway, thats in the future... Now you dont support me, expect me to support you in the future? What is the logic? So what you have been supporting me in the past 20 yrs, does that mean that I onli support you onli 20yrs? If you leave longer then that leh? Who support you? why does it need to be so calculative? dont understand...
but that is how my family works... haiz haiz hiaz....

Hi all, Welcome back.

Quite alot of things happen this few weeks/mths. Friends are coming and going.
Erm... this few months, keep having problems with my mum. We are quarrel with small matters, dont know why. She didnt call me so often a day, after we quarrel on 18 april till now. But alot of things changes. Had told a few close friends what had happen, when they ask. But I was been advise to sit down and talk to her. But sometimes not that I choose not to handle it at the peaceful side. But however, the way we handle the family issue is in a special way.

I had called my auntie on thursday, to update her and also discuss with her on some issue. Auntie was quite shock, as she didnt hear from me quite long liao. I dont want to update my auntie, as she is my mum sister, dont wish their relationship will change or affected just becos of me. My auntie spoke to my mum about it, but things doesnt change. Auntie also told me mum had her plans, but things are still the same or had gone worst, it doesnt improve at all.

Acutally I had a few grassroots friends whom I always speak to. But I am always scared and worried that I will drag them into more problems. Cos when my mum know that I am always with that person, she will get close to him/her and get news from them. Then those friends of mine will start keeping a gap away from me. This does not apply to grassroots friends, but to all my friends from pri to now.

This few days, I had realise that they are all keeping a gap away from me. Kind of a bit sad, but dont dare to ask much, as things might get worst. Just only hope that things will change.

Yesterday morning, quite piss off with my mum, as on sunday nite in her taxi on the way back home. She had promised to return me the money which she either ask me to pay 1st or help her get some stuff de. I had wrote on a piece of paper with the attach receipt as evidence for her, and left it on her table for quite a few days, but she ignore. So since sunday nite she had promised verbally to me, she should leave it on the table or pass it to me. But she didn't, so I had called her to ask. But she hang my phone off, quite piss off la. Try calling again, but was kana scolded. I was like angry liao lor, call u to ask something but early morning scold this and that. Then she come home, shout here shout there. If she did what she had promised, I will not called her early in the morning. We then end up quarreling, bring up all the things which she wanted. I am angry with her, as she always dont believe in me when I tell her the truth. But she loves to believe in others. Like what my dad always say, she will onli listen to outsider, whatever outsiders say is good for her. Whatever family member say is always wrong.

One of our topic during the quarreling is $.
She work and she earn $, my dad work and also earn $. But not as much as her, that is true. She paid most of the family bills, yes true. But we need to pay our own bills under our own name, and also our own hp bills which is under her name, using our own allowance $ that she give. Previously before our quarrel, she used to give us $10 per day, which includes all 3 meals and our own expenses. But after april, she didnt give me any. But yesterday, I know where all the $ for may had gone to. She had deducted $180 for the specs that I had done, pay for my insurance without my acknowledge. With end up just nice for the whole month allowance. As she didnt give me allowance at first, I told my dad. Ending up, my dad got to give me allowance under his own means. But it is quite hard for dad, cos selling ice-cream doesnt earn much. Other then that he need to pay for his van, his hp bills and himself. Dad didnt ask me go find P/T jobs, cos he know. Each and everytime when I got a P/T job to do, mum will always be there keep nagging and find fault for me. Things always leads me ending up the job. Mum will ways say, want study full time, dont work part time. Want to work, work full time.

Anyway during the end of the quarrelling, dad remind me again. Want study or work always think twice, as he admit that he cant support me much. As mum always play stund with us. This issue had been around for quite long. Ever since when I enrol to polytechnic my school fees had been so high, despite that I had already taken up school loans, still need to pay $300 plus cash every semester. Haiz...

Decided to stop school, but friends, teachers and family members keep msning and called me. Cos it is like quite wasted, already paid 3 semester de school fees liao, still got 3 more semester can graduate liao. But I dont know weather what will happen next. If things are able to change back to normal, mean mum is giving me my allowance and she allow me to find P/T job or tempory jobs, paying my school fees, dont give me unnecessary trouble. I should be able to complete my rest of my 3 semester.

Problem is always becos of $, other than my school. Yesterday dad receive another letter, need to pay $ again. Dad is like broke liao, cos he gave me $270 to go to malaysia. I am now like thinking, should i return him the $270 and dont go to the malaysia trip. I dont know what to do, problems keep coming in and I have no one to talk to or should say dont know whom can I talk to.

Help! Help! Help!