today dont know how to describe my mood...

early morning very happy...
went cc to do game card... need to do 1000pcs....
then penny came and help me....
penny told me that yoke keng also at cc...
they ask me out for lunch.... so happy....
went cwp AGAIN....
just feel like smsing auntie, see if she want join us....
dont know la.. dont feel good leh... just feel that there is something not right....

so just inform auntie that we at cwp and also remind her that there is block visit tonite...
suddendly, felix sms me... i know something not right le...
really.... he smsed auntie and auntie didnt reply...
dont know what to say him le...
never mind... friends ma, got to help him lor....
so ask him dont call auntie anymore...

auntie called and chatted for a while...
then penny want to speak to auntie...
so talk lor...

then i return call to felix...
didnt inform him that auntie called....
then just chat lor....

chat till my ear pain lor....
anyway went back cc to complete cutting the game cards....
then went home...
on the way home... then i inform him that auntie called me...
dont want let him know too early...
keep asking me what auntie say....
I am like a recorder between him and auntie... dont know it is right or wrong...
just want to help a friend la....

went home...
dad came home...
scolded me... i was like damn angry lor...
he go fishing then want me help him do all the shit that he didnt do...
then now not enough sleep then put all anger on me...
want to go sleep then ask me help him go sell ice-cream....
WTF lor... really damn angry liao... no choice....

went cwp to bank in mum $, felix called me...
he done something and so called in trouble again....
really dont know what to say him...
fine last chance... if again, not helping anymore...
then warn him....
so distracted that i didnt take dinner at all....

didnt called auntie.... but just worry here and there....
got no one to tell... thinking of ways to help...
went block visit....
both auntie and felix didnt turn up....
auntie called me... ask me not to talk, scared felix is there...
but inform her that he is not... so had some chat... but not long...
cos Mr chung want to speak to her... so let him lor...
talk till hp low batt... she told me some stuff that i know he will upset if he knows it...
but dont know what to do... really....
have no mood doing block visit at all... keep worring...

after block visit called him... told him some la....
those important stuff lor... cos my memory not so good de... no choice....
then come back msn... talk alot stufff....
worrying him alot... BUT

you know what.... i was like stone for a while when he told me the following...

"people like me got health condition one will think very far..... thought in depth one...."
"part of the reason why i break up with you is that i realise that we both had different character"
"and if continue we all will suffer... and kept quarrelling...."

i was like stone... nothing to say....
i felt like i was like nothing but a chess to him....
i felt i dont think this person at all from the begining...
Actually in the past, I really want to know the reason... as I know he is hidding somethings from me... but now i was like... I better dont know...
Anyway we just dated for like less then 1 month and like I am the one suggested to break off de leh....

不要说我讲的话很倔
if you really think far, people like xueping and auntie ivy wont treat you this way.
if we both have different charactor, i wont have lots of advise to stay away from you....
U know what... those who gave me advise are all worrying about me.... they dont know what will you do next....
you mean if we continued we will suffer.... did you suffer at all? I dont think so....
you know what... after we broke off, I had sleepless nites for about a month and no one know
Had bad headack and cried almost everynite... even my mum dont know about it...
DID we quarrel at all? NO

if i were to know this is the reason that you had been hidding... I better dont know...
Now, i dont know what to do!!!!
Really dont know!!!!

But as I promised, I will help you to try to solve the problem between you and auntie... Thats the only promised that I will do.... the rest, i dont know... I am like totally sad till i have nothing to say....
Totally SAD!!!!!